I don’t really know how to start. I get the feeling that I lost two friends that mean the world to me and I think I know exactly why and I’m so sorry. I don’t really know what to do about it and I get it if they don’t want to talk to me anymore. It’s completely understandable and I guess I just need some sort of closure. I’m so sorry. I’m so sorry for not being able to pick you up at the airport. If I had my way, I would’ve picked you up anyway, no matter what happened. I ended up screaming at my mother to let me do so, but, you guys know my mother. She can be so paranoid sometimes, and her thought process no longer makes sense. It stopped making sense in Junior year and I love her to death but I’m so glad I live on my own now. I’m so sorry though. It was unforgivable to do that to you and to just leave you on your own. I felt so horrid that I didn’t know how to face either of you at KCon. You guys have been there for me through some of the worst parts of my life. You’ve seen me fall apart and you’ve seen me in downright despair. You put up with my lying problem and forgave me for it. You guys were there when I was stuck with a man that I didn’t want to be with and that sexually assaulted me and helped me fight through my mother’s menopause. I guess I just don’t want to lose you guys in this way and honestly I’d do anything to have you guys back but I get it. Friends drift away and I get that. I guess I just want to know if I did anything wrong to make you guys leave. Cause I’ve done a lot wrong and I never treated you guys the way you should have been treated and I’m so sorry. Maybe it’s my anxiety talking, maybe it’s not. You guys put up with a lot and for that I am thankful. You guys did a lot for me and it’s not something that I could ever forget. Maybe I’m just scared. I’ve lost a lot of people recently. Sorry.